Thursday, November 5, 2009

Must be strangely excited, somewhat heart-telling

News everyday. News from those around you, those you don't know, news about yourself. Some feel sad, others happy. Sometimes its quite affecting to your soul.
Should all you hear affect you so? If one then why not all? Have we the right to judge what is important to feel and what should not?
When we finally feel, and our deeply affected, everything is significant. It is said we must be compelled to be humbled so we can then truly see and therefore really soar to true heights.
When i am compelled to humility, i feel as though maybe i should always feel this way. For once i feel as though i am truly soaring i am again knocked down, i am lowered and crushed. Must i need to always be crushed. Is it then a question, of looking around while i am on the ground instead of immediately looking to the sky and wonder why i am not there, and how i can fly again.
There are feelings in my heart, things that cannot be reached unless provided by outer circumstances. Why do they limit my heart? Will i only find these answers while on the ground? My mind thinks it more easily seen from the sky, is that not meant to be for my eyes?
The ground is sure, it is steady. I am sure to find what i am looking for here. Humility will only grant me better eye-sight for this treasure i seek. I only wish to soar above the obstacles in the pathway, but that is a selfish wish. The treasure i am looking for leads my heart, selfishness only diminishes the specialness of what i will find inside when i reach it.
These wings in which we are given must not be meant for flying, but for the mere fact that WE CAN fly. And because i can does not mean i should or must. My soul and the Spirit leads my heart, i must focus on that fact and not the wings on my back. I must walk my pathway with gratitude and humility. Not looking to the sky nor the ground, but straight ahead with hope, and look around with an open heart and mind to see and to learn. Only then will my treasure be found. With my humble heart and open eyes.

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