Cupcakes!

Yester day my sweet visiting teachers came over a gave me a little present for my birthday on saturday! In my hands they placed a box of yellow cake mix, two books titled " 101 things to do with cake mix" and "101 more things to do with cake mix" , all this tied together in a beautiful white ribbon! So after a lovely chat, i decided, you know what, cupcakes sound darn good right now! So in to the kitchen i galloped. Now, as i start cupcaking, i think, "Hmm, i want that yummy pudding frosting stuff!". SO i send Joshy to the store to purchase vanilla pudding mix and a thing of cool whip right, cause thats how ya make it! And just to be sure i called my mom to double check, i had never made it myself but seen it done many many times! so, i pour in the mix and the cool whip and start beating away....and away......and after 20 minutes i am thinking ok what the crap! The stuff is getting thicker but there is no way i can spread this waterey, slowly growing slop over a stinking cupcake! Now, as i have mentioned before, i am not a very patient lady, and i was getting so mad at this yellow blob!

I finally after my hand was hurting from the vibration of the electric mixer, called my mommy. And to my surprize, it isnt just normal pudding mix, it is INSTANT pudding mix! HOw silly of me! No wonder i have this evergrowing puddle of goo sloshing around infront of me!

ARRRG! i slouched over to the couch and plopped down and decided that maybe cupcakes werent a good idear! Then My sweet husband talked some sense into me and because he loves me so much, he ran to the store again to purchase the correct items! Oh and since i used 3 whole cups of milk with the other stuff we now needed more milk as well!

So the moral of the story is....if you want good cupcakes, take the time to do it right and have a good attitude about it, because in the end it is worth it! Just look how happy Josh was!

What The??!!?<"_**(^%$#@

So the last year or so, I have done something bad. I didn't know i was doing it at the time, until recently. To fully know what i am talking about i have to Start with the beginning...... Josh and me have been trying to get pregnant for about 2 years now. When we were first trying it was like, oh well next time, we have all the time in the world. Then towards the middle, it got extremely frustrating! I am really impatient anyways, and the fact that i couldn't do anything about this situation was really hard! On top of that, Every single girl around me was, and still is, getting pregnant! I don't understand how that happens! I hear of some one new every single day, that is no exaggeration! Of course the fact that i am Mormon doesn't help because every Sunday at least 2 people announce they are, in fact, pregnant. Even more, girls that aren't married dating or even in love are getting pregnant! Is it just the water i am drinking? I do drink a lot of it? Should i be careless and irresponsible and immature too? I don't want to be and i would look stupid trying to because that is just not me. I also don't get how people plan, to the day, of when they will be pregnant? Like, oh we will get pregnant i October so our daughter will be out of diapers by then, and then January of the next next year i will get pregnant again. And then it happens! HOW! I am a very healthy girl, i eat mostly organic foods, i never drink pop, unless i have bad cramps then i think i deserve a Pepsi or 2! But as far as health issues go, there is "nothing wrong with me". Well i could go on for days about how frustrated i am, but that isn't what i have done wrong, During this time, i have let myself go. I stopped believing in most things. I started looking for answers in the dumbest ways.....i became negative and sad to the point were until a few days ago, i didn't know who i was anymore! I am not a negative person, i am very optimistic, and happy! I love to laugh and have fun! I love reading and learning about things and i stopped doing all that and became this ugly person i don't like. I didn't do anything against the law or i didn't do anything actually bad, i just stopped believing in myself and those around me. So the other day, i went online and started looking up quotes and poems at a website i use to visit for years, but stopped of course, and as i was reading wisdom of others, it clicked in my head that i have been missing myself! So from now on, i am going to be me and that's it! No matter how mad or sad or hurt i feel i need to be me or i will cease to exist and i wont be happy! So I am happy now! Yes i am still sad that i have no baby in my belly, but my life is really good! I have a husband who is the bestest friend i have ever had and loves me and i love him to death! I have a cute dog that brings joy to my life and makes me laugh even though he is an animal! I have good parents and siblings and family who are so unique and fun! So now i will not be bad anymore, i am happy and loving and me again!!

Red Sails in the Sunset

Happy July 4th 2008!! Ok well i am a little late...i still cannot believe that July is half way through almost! Ever since i was little, July has been my favorite time of year...the 4th is my favorite holiday ( weird i know), my sister, dad, and my birthday are in July, you can swim everyday if you wanted to, and the smell of freshly cut grass seems to smell better in July! This last week we were in Newport Beach, California. It has been tradition for last couple of years to go there on the 4th. Newport is such a beautiful happy beach town but not on the 4th of July! They close down the streets ( all the beach streets) and there are people everywhere!!! Its so fun people watching at that time. We all sit on the balcony or porch and say "ew" "OOOH" "HAHA" "look at her" "Gross" "eee" "aaah"! Quite entertaining business! And although i had oodles and oodles of fun, it was so nice to get back home and see my doggy! i missed his little face! i ll try to get pictures up as soon as i get them developed.....yes i am the only one in the world with out a digital camera!