Alexandra's List of Top Hair Products 2008

Favorite for Thick/Coarse and Curly hair: Aveda Brilliant Universal Styling Creme. Seriously, this product has saved my life a few times...if you have coarse hair it is magic! Also, love to use with up-do's. Makes hair shiny and gives it just a little hold.

Favorite Straightening Product: Sexy Hair Darn Straight. This product works wonders for frizzies and fly-aways. It works well when just blow-drying also. Not heavy at all because it is more of a light lotion consistency. Love it!

Favorite Mouse: GHD Volumizing Mouse. I am in love with this stuff! I love the smell, how it works, everything!

Favorite Pomade for Men (or women): Aveda Mens Grooming Clay. Favorite Conditioner: Kenra Moisturizing. This also, smells delicious like banana runts, a cousin correctly pointed out to me.

Favorite Shampoo: Nolita Moisturizing. I am in love with this stuff! Not only does it smell good, it leaves your hair feeling amazing! But of course, of course, this brand has been discontinued leaving me sad and lonely for more...(good thing i went on a lot of websites and ordered many) ( i only use them on special occasions and holidays)

Favorite Leave-in Conditioning Treatment: Pravana Hydrating Intense Leave-in Treatment. I love best that it is a spray, that way you can use a lot or a little, and you are in complete control. I feel that with lotions or cremes you tend to use too much. This smells really good, like candy! Favorite All around Hairspray: Aveda Pure Abundance. Firm hold, yet not crunchy or sticky. I love it best when used with backcombing.

Thermal protection: Rusk Thermal Shine Spray. Works wonders when flat ironing, smells delicious also.

Curly Beach/don't care today product: GHD Sea Spray. Compare to Bumble and Bumble Sea spray, this is lighter and not as sticky so you can mold and move through out the day.

My NEW favorite for everything: Sebastian Whipped Creme. It smells SOO yummy! Gets an A++ just for being alive.

These are a few of my favorite things..

People keep asking me what i want for Christmas, but when i am put on the spot like that i can never remember.....here are some things i not only want, but need as well.....

Josh and I are in need of some really good kitchen cutlery. The knives we have are from IKEA and will not even cut the cheese correctly... that is how impossible they are..

Sadly, my trusty ol Rainbow flip flops that are suppose to last a lifetime failed yesterday when the right one broke....i wear them everyday and even though they have a lifetime guarantee, i don't want to send them in.....I bought them at the actual Rainbow factory 5 years ago....I've worn then just about everyday since....i am in desperate need of replacements...

For those of you who know me, you may or may not know that i am in love with music! I LOVE MUSIC! Just one itunes gift card would be more than enough...there are so many new bands and singers i have discovered but cant bring myself to buy due to lack of funds....

I've always wanted a really cool shnazey leather bomber jacket and i have seen some really cute ones this year...

But, more than anything, i want my baby....this one isn't "the one" but isn't it cute! I just am tired of waiting and everything.....I know for a fact this is something i will not get by Christmas, but when it comes down to it, everything else is just everything else, i don't really want anything but our baby......hopefully by some miracle, we will hear back from Ethiopia by then.....but if not, we will still be here waiting for what really matters most to us right now...

You only live once, and it will grow back!

This is Leigh Lezark. She is the D.J. for the MisShapes and I have always loved her style...and her hair ofcourse. I keep telling myself when i cut my hair, i am going to cut it like hers...so i am going to take the plunge and do it...hopefuly sometime this week or next!

UPDATE:

On Thursday at 2:00 p.m. we will be at our last home study! I still have some little things to take care of with our dossier, but they are minor and i am hoping i get them done this week! It is my goal! I don't know why i have been so lazy about it, you would think i would just be on top of everything...but the truth is, i feel defeated when i cant do everything all at once, somethings i have to wait for things and that just irritates me! But i am not going to let all these official documents scare me anymore and hopefully be completely finished with the paper work by next week!

WARNING not for the faint of heart...

See this drink up yonder... i dont believe in energy drinks and i rarely drink pop so i have to find stuff to drink thats yummy because although i love water to pieces, sometimes i just need some taste! So i found these, and Yerba Mate is an herb that enhances any other herb you place it with...i got these drinks originally for Josh because he drinks way to much pop and energy drink and these are a better alternative.....well i drank half of one about 3 hours ago and i still am feeling it.....i cant stop moving....my muscles are anxiously awaiting some movement if i dont move....on top of that we are going to the ASU football game and i believe that i will have no problem getting into the game and yelling and screaming actually sound really good to me right now.....

Faith is something hoped for but not seen...

Good morning! I found these words of wisdom in a newsletter i get every once and a while and i think they are very helpful!

Time: Remember that things are not static. Hardship is always followed by prosperity. In times like these, try to "go with the flow" -- cut down expenses, prioritize, and appreciate what you still have until the storm is gone.

Let your warrior kill your worrier. Worrying about the future only drains us of the energy we need to build our future. Instead, fully focus on your present: do what you need to do today to ensure a better tomorrow.

Hope. Instead of doubting life, we need to give it some credit. We all have a lesson to learn behind every pain we suffer. If you believe in a "Higher Power," this is the time to put faith above fear. If things were always well, how else would we strengthen our faith? And if your faith is in your own power, this is an opportunity to put it to work.

Dream

The night was young, the air just cold, the street lights reflected in the wet of the cobblestone ground when josh and i were running away. We were running fast, though i know not what from, but i didn't feel as though we were in trouble..... i do know that we were running from someone....all the sudden i open my eyes and i am laying on the damp cobblestone ground....i see around me the street lamps, a park with a little black rod-iron fence surrounding, a white chapel with tall white spires.....from the uneven altered cracks of the stone my hand lifts a key, not just any key. This one is beautiful, its very medieval antique looking and encrusted with rubies. I gaze at it in awe and happiness feels me, i know not what they key goes to exactly, but i do know i found something i will need....

Suddenly, we are at a wedding in the park, we are dressed as the bride and groom but i know that we are not the ones who are getting married, we are simply disguised. the lady priest knows this and when she finds out, i hand her the black handgun from my hand and, again, josh and i start running, this time through the park in late afternoon. i can see my dress flowing as we run and his dress shirt untucked, disheveled and tie unlooped....the park was overcast but not cloudy, there was not warmth in the air, but also not cold either....the people were chasing us, or maybe just running with us...i am not scared or tired or confused, but i run....i notice the trees have lost there leaves but they are still beautiful...i feel as though we are in England or Europe somewhere....

The End

Today...

Today was the first day, i woke up, got dressed, and put on a ...JACKET...got in the car, and guess what, rolled down the windows! there was no need for the air conditioning! I LOVE THE FEELING OF FALL! I know i dont get to see all the fall colors until well out of the season of fall, but just that feeling of being able to walk outside and feel a crisp chill in the air....aaahhh....
by the way...this picture i took on a hike this time last year around the Peralta Trail...It was waving at me! do you see it?

www.rustyzipper.com

So when i am bored, i often visit this website...i discovered it along time ago. It consists of vintage apparel, which i happen to love, but sometimes i just sit here and laugh at what my mom, dad, gramma's, and grandpa's wore.....

See this dress is a 1950's cocktail dress that i actually think is quite cute......

unfortunately, i could see my mom wearing this one back in the day, sorry mom!

I love these shoes...but of course they are the most expensive thing on the website, a whole $40!

HAHAHAHAHA! i don't know....."Turn the beat around! love to feel per cu ssion!"

Men's wear as well...i like this tie, kinda weird/artsy fartsy...just like me!

Pretty woman! walkin down the street! Pretty woman! these are the Julia Roberts boots...

I named this the Troy sweater...."ANDY! YOU GOONIE! GOONIE! GOONIE!"

When i was a little girl, this is the type of dress I thought was soooo pretty! interestingly, it is classified as a wedding dress...heaven help this lady who has to look back at her pictures!

And that my friends, is my fashion show for the night! I hope you enjoyed yourself, had some laughs, maybe even some tears..hopeful joyful ones...or those of regret....either way, please visit www.rustyzipper.com for there is more where this came from! Thanks again and goodnight!

Laaa Dee Daa Dee Daaa

I sincerely apologize for taking so long to write. It feels as though i have been so busy, but the truth is, i am lazy. The home study went really well and if i finish off my things to do for this week, we should be having another one in the next couple of weeks! Things are moving right along! I finally figured out the name of the orphanage in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia. It is Le Toukoul and was opened by a french couple in the mid to late 90's. This is a video of the orphanage, it is a bit long so have some patience...
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x577j1_une-journee-au-toukoul-partie-1_lifestyle
I love them! I Love their sweet faces! My favorite part is the little one just learning to walk! I absolutely go bonkers with giddiness when i see little ones wearing the whole suit/footsie pajamas! It makes me want to squish them to pieces and hug them forever in those darn cute little things! As i watched this little boy just learning to walk, it struck me that these sweet ladies are raising these kids. How sad they must get when one leaves and happy to know they will be taken care of forever. I am so grateful to those ladies, even though we don't have our baby yet. It is a lady just like that one holding, feeding, playing, and teaching our baby right now. I am so grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with this sweet blessing to soon come into our lives. I am so happy and excited to see our baby someday. But for now, i know that sweet lady is taking good care of my baby and loving them as we do and will.....

I'm on my way....

Tomorrow morning at 9 o-clock, we will have our first home study visit from our social worker...i am so excited and nervous and i really have no idea what to expect! Does she have to walk around and look at our house...like every nook and cranny?? Is she just talking to us?? Will she walk around with a check list and give it to us at the end and tell us pass or fail?? AAAAAAAAH! What is going to happen?? I can tell ya something right now though, i feel the winds of change starting to blow...i can feel something brewing in the air and i just know that our dreams of becoming parents are getting closer each day. We are so thankful. I know our little one is out there somewhere waiting for us... whether he/she is here already or still in heaven, i know they are waiting... i can feel there sweet spirit in my heart, crazy as that sounds...i can feel it...i have my whole life i believe and it is surreal that we are making the arrangements to bring them home. I cant wait to see you little baby, i love you so much! we can hardly wait!

Something Good

"Priceless truths I have learned through spiritual guidance over many years.

• We will never be prompted by the Holy Ghost to do something we cannot do. It may require extraordinary effort and much time, patience, prayer and obedience, but we can do it.
• To reach a goal never before attained one must do things never before done.
• We can make many choices in life, but we cannot determine our final destiny. Our actions do that.
• It is important not to judge ourselves by what we think we know of our own potential. We should trust the Lord and what He can do with our dedicated heart and wiling mind
• The Lord has a consummate capacity to judge our intent. He is concerned about what we are becoming by the choices we make. He has a plan for each of us.
• Satan has absolutely no power to force a determined righteous individual because the Lord protects that person from him, He can tempt; he can threaten; he can attempt to appear to have such power; but he does not possess it.
• In a quiet moment of pondering I learned the there is a relationship between faith and character. The greater our faith in Jesus Christ, the stronger our character enhances our ability to exercise even greater faith. -Richard G. Scott"

I found this in The Beehive, ( a church newspaper), and it has been taped, yes taped, to my fridge for like 2 years.....every morning i read it and it inspires me to go and be me....i hope you all enjoy it too....

I went to the library yesterday and got my first library card since i was like 5 years old! I wanted to find some interesting books to learn more about Ethiopia and their culture and all that good stuff. Well somebody out there must be doing a report on Ethiopia because all the books i looked up were checked out or missing! I did, however, find a few novels and a big art history book that looks promising. I read the first couple chapters of the novels to decide which one to read first( i cannot read books at the same time, i get to into the characters). I kept coming back to this one and i will be done with it by the end of the day that is how good it is!! It is a memoir about a boy that grew up in Ethiopia in the 1960's and 70's , he saw Ethiopia before all the turmoil and witness how and why it all started. He also stood up for what was right even though his corrupt government might kill him for his beliefs. Its so amazing how children in other countries grow a back bone and opinion so early in life and not only do they voice their beliefs, they stand up to corrupt authority figures and really want the best for their people. I am so thankful i found the book because for all i was researching i couldn't figure out what exactly had happened to this country for it to be in the state it is now. It is all very interesting and i am learning something new with each page i turn........

Can it really get more annoying??

It will never cease to amaze me how stupid people can be. I know i shouldn't let it get to me, but you know what, it does. WHY is it so hard to just live and let live?? If you don't believe in something, and some people do...SO WHAT! Why do you have to advertise it? So what you don't believe in the same things you use to...who does?? That is the whole point of being on this earth to learn and grow. I don't mean to vent negativity here, but i just read something in the newspaper that, to put it bluntly, really pisses me off. I wont tell you what it was, but it is stupid that i am getting so mad. It just goes along with my whole bubble theory....the ones who think they are so out of a bubble but in fact made their own in the process are the worst and most annoying..... my hope for my children is that i can teach them that you don't have to belong to ANY bubble at all...you can be your own self and follow your own heart. Don't blame others EVER. You are in complete control of your own life. Never play the victim. Ya, sometimes life throws you curve balls but its OK. We all knew before we came to earth what would happen to us and obviously we all said we would come despite. I don't want my kids to only feel comfortable around those of our same beliefs, or backgrounds...that is just wrong. I want it so they could be put in a room with anybody in this world and find commonalities despite the fact that on the outside, nothing is the same. You gotta dig deeper then what meets the eye...know you should always dig deeper. I am SO grateful i myself was raised this way. I know my family is the same also and it gives me hope. Its funny how in the world, its all competition and i never understood why and never competed, and now i know what the competition is for.....NOTHING! Go ahead and compete and make yourself not you, i instead am going to continue to be who i am and who i always have been. I am ME. that's it. and that's all i want to be. I hope with all my heart i can teach my children this. You can only be the best YOU, you can never be good at being someone else. I know my Heavenly Father loves everyone, and i know he loves me. That alone is enough for me to be comfortable in my own skin....i know i am here right now at this time for some reason, i know i am in this body for some reason, i know i am with my friends and family for a reason also. ........aaaah, my blood pressure is now back to normal...all the thanks to my trusty keyboard and computer for hearing me......

I love photography!

My Mom showed me this blog and i fell in love imediatly! Check it out! http://capturedmiracles.blogspot.com/

( Playing Jesus is my moms piano tuner!)

Its a Plout I say!

Has anyone ever had a Plout before?? Well i first had one last year and now they are back in season...i think its a Plum and Apricot mix...darn good! It looks like something E.T. found on some planet far away! MMMM MMM MMMM!

My New Past Time!!

If you truly are wanting some inspiration and gratification, go to http://www.oriahmountaindreamer.com/home.html and become hooked on her words and thoughts!

The Invitation
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
byOriah Mountain Dreamer

Have faith and Fear not!

The other day i went frolicking throughout the mesa area to find a part time job somewhere at a school...just like an aid or something fun to fill my time. Well, every school i applied at said they weren't looking for anyone yet so i figured i wouldn't hear back for a while. Well today i had an interview at Emerson Elementary. So i turned down the road merrily singing away and i looked over on another street and an OLD man was flipping me off! He was really old too, like white fluffy hair old! I didn't do anything wrong so i have no idea what his problem was but it was the funniest thing i have seen in a while and i couldn't stop laughing! He saw me laugh too and i think i made him even more mad. Anyhoo... so i show up to my interview and guess who the dean of students(the lady interviewing me) is??? My fourth grade teacher!! How weird is that! Well she thankfully couldn't remember how hyper and A.D.D i was at that age and remembered my good student qualities and hired me on the spot!!! So after my fingerprints and such come back showing that i am not a criminal i will soon be a crossing guard an Emerson Elementary working for my fourth grade teacher! After i take some test then i will be able to be a teachers aid which is more what i was looking for...hopefully i don't get any children run over :/
Also, Josh and I will soon be in the process of adopting a child from Ethiopia!! We are very excited about this....the more i read though the more anxious and exhausted i feel...there is soooo much to do and we haven't even begun...i know it will all be ok it just gives me a head ache thinking of all we have to get done....we need passports, home study's, references, biographies of our lives even....not to mention funding as well!!! Boy oh boy, all i know is that we want this really bad and looking back i will feel silly for feeling this way! I am so thankful for all that is happening in my life right now. I am very blessed indeed

I Love....

Its amazing how life changes so fast. Everyday is different from the day before, every hour changes. Your surroundings change, the weather changes, what you thought yesterday doesn't seem to fit what you think of today...People you love are constant. Its a miracle with all that changes with your atmosphere and goals, and worries, the people you love, you will always love. Even if you don't talk to the ones you love everyday, or hug them when you see them or call them on the phone once in a while, if they held anyplace in you heart, they will always hold that place no matter what! I am grateful for those that are in my heart! Even if i don't talk to you all the time, or tell you that i do love you, you fill a void that no one else could do! I am grateful for all those who make me happy whenever i think of them and i am even grateful to those that i worry about constantly because i still love you and i always will! I hope you all know that!

Cupcakes!

Yester day my sweet visiting teachers came over a gave me a little present for my birthday on saturday! In my hands they placed a box of yellow cake mix, two books titled " 101 things to do with cake mix" and "101 more things to do with cake mix" , all this tied together in a beautiful white ribbon! So after a lovely chat, i decided, you know what, cupcakes sound darn good right now! So in to the kitchen i galloped. Now, as i start cupcaking, i think, "Hmm, i want that yummy pudding frosting stuff!". SO i send Joshy to the store to purchase vanilla pudding mix and a thing of cool whip right, cause thats how ya make it! And just to be sure i called my mom to double check, i had never made it myself but seen it done many many times! so, i pour in the mix and the cool whip and start beating away....and away......and after 20 minutes i am thinking ok what the crap! The stuff is getting thicker but there is no way i can spread this waterey, slowly growing slop over a stinking cupcake! Now, as i have mentioned before, i am not a very patient lady, and i was getting so mad at this yellow blob!

I finally after my hand was hurting from the vibration of the electric mixer, called my mommy. And to my surprize, it isnt just normal pudding mix, it is INSTANT pudding mix! HOw silly of me! No wonder i have this evergrowing puddle of goo sloshing around infront of me!

ARRRG! i slouched over to the couch and plopped down and decided that maybe cupcakes werent a good idear! Then My sweet husband talked some sense into me and because he loves me so much, he ran to the store again to purchase the correct items! Oh and since i used 3 whole cups of milk with the other stuff we now needed more milk as well!

So the moral of the story is....if you want good cupcakes, take the time to do it right and have a good attitude about it, because in the end it is worth it! Just look how happy Josh was!

What The??!!?<"_**(^%$#@

So the last year or so, I have done something bad. I didn't know i was doing it at the time, until recently. To fully know what i am talking about i have to Start with the beginning...... Josh and me have been trying to get pregnant for about 2 years now. When we were first trying it was like, oh well next time, we have all the time in the world. Then towards the middle, it got extremely frustrating! I am really impatient anyways, and the fact that i couldn't do anything about this situation was really hard! On top of that, Every single girl around me was, and still is, getting pregnant! I don't understand how that happens! I hear of some one new every single day, that is no exaggeration! Of course the fact that i am Mormon doesn't help because every Sunday at least 2 people announce they are, in fact, pregnant. Even more, girls that aren't married dating or even in love are getting pregnant! Is it just the water i am drinking? I do drink a lot of it? Should i be careless and irresponsible and immature too? I don't want to be and i would look stupid trying to because that is just not me. I also don't get how people plan, to the day, of when they will be pregnant? Like, oh we will get pregnant i October so our daughter will be out of diapers by then, and then January of the next next year i will get pregnant again. And then it happens! HOW! I am a very healthy girl, i eat mostly organic foods, i never drink pop, unless i have bad cramps then i think i deserve a Pepsi or 2! But as far as health issues go, there is "nothing wrong with me". Well i could go on for days about how frustrated i am, but that isn't what i have done wrong, During this time, i have let myself go. I stopped believing in most things. I started looking for answers in the dumbest ways.....i became negative and sad to the point were until a few days ago, i didn't know who i was anymore! I am not a negative person, i am very optimistic, and happy! I love to laugh and have fun! I love reading and learning about things and i stopped doing all that and became this ugly person i don't like. I didn't do anything against the law or i didn't do anything actually bad, i just stopped believing in myself and those around me. So the other day, i went online and started looking up quotes and poems at a website i use to visit for years, but stopped of course, and as i was reading wisdom of others, it clicked in my head that i have been missing myself! So from now on, i am going to be me and that's it! No matter how mad or sad or hurt i feel i need to be me or i will cease to exist and i wont be happy! So I am happy now! Yes i am still sad that i have no baby in my belly, but my life is really good! I have a husband who is the bestest friend i have ever had and loves me and i love him to death! I have a cute dog that brings joy to my life and makes me laugh even though he is an animal! I have good parents and siblings and family who are so unique and fun! So now i will not be bad anymore, i am happy and loving and me again!!

Red Sails in the Sunset

Happy July 4th 2008!! Ok well i am a little late...i still cannot believe that July is half way through almost! Ever since i was little, July has been my favorite time of year...the 4th is my favorite holiday ( weird i know), my sister, dad, and my birthday are in July, you can swim everyday if you wanted to, and the smell of freshly cut grass seems to smell better in July! This last week we were in Newport Beach, California. It has been tradition for last couple of years to go there on the 4th. Newport is such a beautiful happy beach town but not on the 4th of July! They close down the streets ( all the beach streets) and there are people everywhere!!! Its so fun people watching at that time. We all sit on the balcony or porch and say "ew" "OOOH" "HAHA" "look at her" "Gross" "eee" "aaah"! Quite entertaining business! And although i had oodles and oodles of fun, it was so nice to get back home and see my doggy! i missed his little face! i ll try to get pictures up as soon as i get them developed.....yes i am the only one in the world with out a digital camera!

Sometimes i think.....actually i think alot..... i suppose i am what you call a dreamer. I decided this is what makes not only me but alot of people happy and healthy in the brain. So while i was thinking i decided this is what i think about life as a woman...... First of all, you should have an open mind... always! It is important! And i am not talking about not having morals or being flaky, i just mean hear things out! Don't judge or criticize so fast, sometimes if you listen long enough you will realize something you didn't know. It is not good to be stuck in bubbles. social bubbles, religious bubbles, emotional bubbles, belief bubbles....all bubbles to me = ignorance. I think it wrong to be knowingly ignorant... you can also be in a rebellious bubble thinking you are so out of a bubble. rebellious bubbles are the worst kind because you are going against what you are trying so hard to stay away from. Second, women, please eat food. Eat it and like it! For instance, if i am drinking a chai tea latte, which happens to bring me great joy, why get skim milk in it. Get the real deal! if you enjoy ice cream eat ice cream! If you want to drink a soda pop, drink a soda pop! Pop is bad for you anyways and diet pop is even worse! so basically what i am saying is, if you are going to enjoy something then enjoy it ALL. Which brings me to my third, release your inner child on a daily basis. Children are so loving and happy and excited about things and don't care what others think! that is how adults should be too! If you want to go spin a circle until you fall over then do it! If you want to run around barefoot in the grass then do it! If you want to pick you nose and flick it when your done then do it! i think keeping in contact with your inner child keeps you sane and you will live longer because you are exerting positive instead of negative. Which happen to be numero 4, positive energy brings positive results! If you are constantly thinking negative the you will only receive negative. Thinking positively brings around good energy and will help you!( eat that bagel and think positive, it made you happy and will not cause your thighs to grow ). All in all, if it is something that is not hurting you or anyone else then it is OK. I know some people think, well this cigarette makes me happy, but really it doesn't and it hurts you, which in turn hurts those around you and look whats happening all the sudden negative energy is floating around! so don't get tricked. Also, take time to look at nature around you! it is beautiful and amazing! And if you feel like talking to the animals and believe they can hear you then do it!

I MISS THEM!!! arent they cute!! My cute cousins from my cute aunt and uncle and they live in cute Moab, Utah!!! I love you guys!!

This is our dog Rosco! I love him to pieces! I am becoming one of those wierd people who like to talk about their dogs but i dont care because he is soooo cute and really entertaining!

Now I am COOL!

Woo Hoo! I am now apart of the blogging community! I feel like I finally fit in now! I had a dream that I needed to do this for some reason....could mean nothing or could really mean something...but anyway I couldnt stop thinking about it so here we go! I am a big believer in dreams and i really think they mean something.....although mine are soo wierd and strange if i told you them you wouldn't get it! It is more of the feeling of the dream itself or how I felt in that dream..... this one particular dream made me feel happy, but also anxious! I wanted to go to my computer at 4 in the morning and start a stinking blog! i didnt though and waited and waited and finally did it.... so now you get to hear me blab about nothing and see pictures of my husband and doggy!