I'm on my way....

Tomorrow morning at 9 o-clock, we will have our first home study visit from our social worker...i am so excited and nervous and i really have no idea what to expect! Does she have to walk around and look at our house...like every nook and cranny?? Is she just talking to us?? Will she walk around with a check list and give it to us at the end and tell us pass or fail?? AAAAAAAAH! What is going to happen?? I can tell ya something right now though, i feel the winds of change starting to blow...i can feel something brewing in the air and i just know that our dreams of becoming parents are getting closer each day. We are so thankful. I know our little one is out there somewhere waiting for us... whether he/she is here already or still in heaven, i know they are waiting... i can feel there sweet spirit in my heart, crazy as that sounds...i can feel it...i have my whole life i believe and it is surreal that we are making the arrangements to bring them home. I cant wait to see you little baby, i love you so much! we can hardly wait!

Something Good

"Priceless truths I have learned through spiritual guidance over many years.

• We will never be prompted by the Holy Ghost to do something we cannot do. It may require extraordinary effort and much time, patience, prayer and obedience, but we can do it.
• To reach a goal never before attained one must do things never before done.
• We can make many choices in life, but we cannot determine our final destiny. Our actions do that.
• It is important not to judge ourselves by what we think we know of our own potential. We should trust the Lord and what He can do with our dedicated heart and wiling mind
• The Lord has a consummate capacity to judge our intent. He is concerned about what we are becoming by the choices we make. He has a plan for each of us.
• Satan has absolutely no power to force a determined righteous individual because the Lord protects that person from him, He can tempt; he can threaten; he can attempt to appear to have such power; but he does not possess it.
• In a quiet moment of pondering I learned the there is a relationship between faith and character. The greater our faith in Jesus Christ, the stronger our character enhances our ability to exercise even greater faith. -Richard G. Scott"

I found this in The Beehive, ( a church newspaper), and it has been taped, yes taped, to my fridge for like 2 years.....every morning i read it and it inspires me to go and be me....i hope you all enjoy it too....

I went to the library yesterday and got my first library card since i was like 5 years old! I wanted to find some interesting books to learn more about Ethiopia and their culture and all that good stuff. Well somebody out there must be doing a report on Ethiopia because all the books i looked up were checked out or missing! I did, however, find a few novels and a big art history book that looks promising. I read the first couple chapters of the novels to decide which one to read first( i cannot read books at the same time, i get to into the characters). I kept coming back to this one and i will be done with it by the end of the day that is how good it is!! It is a memoir about a boy that grew up in Ethiopia in the 1960's and 70's , he saw Ethiopia before all the turmoil and witness how and why it all started. He also stood up for what was right even though his corrupt government might kill him for his beliefs. Its so amazing how children in other countries grow a back bone and opinion so early in life and not only do they voice their beliefs, they stand up to corrupt authority figures and really want the best for their people. I am so thankful i found the book because for all i was researching i couldn't figure out what exactly had happened to this country for it to be in the state it is now. It is all very interesting and i am learning something new with each page i turn........

Can it really get more annoying??

It will never cease to amaze me how stupid people can be. I know i shouldn't let it get to me, but you know what, it does. WHY is it so hard to just live and let live?? If you don't believe in something, and some people do...SO WHAT! Why do you have to advertise it? So what you don't believe in the same things you use to...who does?? That is the whole point of being on this earth to learn and grow. I don't mean to vent negativity here, but i just read something in the newspaper that, to put it bluntly, really pisses me off. I wont tell you what it was, but it is stupid that i am getting so mad. It just goes along with my whole bubble theory....the ones who think they are so out of a bubble but in fact made their own in the process are the worst and most annoying..... my hope for my children is that i can teach them that you don't have to belong to ANY bubble at all...you can be your own self and follow your own heart. Don't blame others EVER. You are in complete control of your own life. Never play the victim. Ya, sometimes life throws you curve balls but its OK. We all knew before we came to earth what would happen to us and obviously we all said we would come despite. I don't want my kids to only feel comfortable around those of our same beliefs, or backgrounds...that is just wrong. I want it so they could be put in a room with anybody in this world and find commonalities despite the fact that on the outside, nothing is the same. You gotta dig deeper then what meets the eye...know you should always dig deeper. I am SO grateful i myself was raised this way. I know my family is the same also and it gives me hope. Its funny how in the world, its all competition and i never understood why and never competed, and now i know what the competition is for.....NOTHING! Go ahead and compete and make yourself not you, i instead am going to continue to be who i am and who i always have been. I am ME. that's it. and that's all i want to be. I hope with all my heart i can teach my children this. You can only be the best YOU, you can never be good at being someone else. I know my Heavenly Father loves everyone, and i know he loves me. That alone is enough for me to be comfortable in my own skin....i know i am here right now at this time for some reason, i know i am in this body for some reason, i know i am with my friends and family for a reason also. ........aaaah, my blood pressure is now back to normal...all the thanks to my trusty keyboard and computer for hearing me......

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