New Hat

I got a new hat today! It was on sale for $12.95! I have lots of hats, but i never wear them...why you ask?? I dont know?? I do love hats though and when you find a super cute one, and its only so much money, you have to get it! That is one of my life rules.

Laaa Dee Daa Dee Doo Doo

this is our dossier.....all of it!

YAY!!!

What a beautiful day in the neighborhood! Its suppose to be 79 degrees today, which is a bit warm, but its so pretty outside! This morning, we finally sent off our dossier! I am so happy that we got it done! And it is out of our hands now, scary but necessary in order to get to our goal. So from here, it will go to the adoption agency, International Family Services. They will take a look at it and make sure everything is in order and we have all we need (fingers crossed!), then they will send it to Washington, D.C. and then off to ETHIOPIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!! And then......we wait some more....But this time, what puts an end to the wait, is our sweet lil baby..kinda...but closer to anyway...
Last week we attended our first adoption class. I was not very excited about it all to be 100% honest. I didn't know what it was going to be like...would somebody just stand up and talk about stuff we already know about?? If that was the case, i know it would have only made me more anxious and annoyed. But, luckily, it was nothing of that sort!! Melinda is her name, the teacher that is. She herself has 4 kids who all are adopted also. She has worked in this line for a while, so she is familiar with all the paper work and laws, and can also empathize with us on the more emotional part of things too. There was another couple in the class with us, they are just barely beginning the process and are adopting a baby girl from Bulgaria. I could see and feel there excitement. Josh and i were talking on the way home about how weird it is too see some one else going through what we just ended. Anyhoo, the class was more like a nice little chat about all things adoption. We talked about more personal experiences and gave and received advice. I from now on, want to refer to it as a support group. Because that's more of what the "class" will be like.
I am so grateful for all things right now. I am learning to appreciate being happy with the here and now. Looking forward only creates anxiety and fear. Looking back is something i don't do very often, but when i do, that doesn't help either. I am here right now! I am the only ME i can be right now. I cant be this me at any other time, because i wont feel or know the things i know and don't know right now! Does that make any sense? It my strange head it does. I am so thankful for Josh. I can not even begin to think even, about how perfect he is for me. I love him so much! He helps calm me down when i am freaking out about all these things, and he doesn't even really say anything. I love him...sigh.... So now we wait 4-6 months.....wish us luck!

Dream

Ok... another weird dream..... Josh and I were at a hotel somewhere. I was walking to our room, and i look over and see three really cute pit bulls. The mommy and puppy were dark brown and the dad was black with a white stripe on his nose. They noticed me and started to run after me! So I ran upthe stairs and in my head thought," DUH, dogs can run up the stairs too!" but i was already stuck up there and they were almost up. So i jumped over to the other side of the railing. I continued doing this like a was spiderman because they kept jumping at me. I wasn't scared but i was really annoyed that somebody would let there untrained dogs just run around and jump at people. So i started yelling."Whoever owns the three pit bulls needs to get out here right now and learn how to be a better dog owner!!". I was yelling really loud and two girls opened a door below me, one was in a wheelchair. They both had worried looks on their faces. The one in the wheelchair said she would go get the owner and wheeled away. Well i did end up getting down and i still wasn't scared or anything just sad that those beautiful dogs had such a stupid owner! So now back to real life....as you know, I am a crossing guard for an elementary school and as i was on my way to my corner, guess what.....Two pit bulls ran across the road right by me...one was female and dark brown, the other was a black male..with a white stripe on his nose......what does that mean? Am I psychic and if so, why did i dream about those dogs, I

only saw them for a minute while they ran down the road....

Happy New Year!

Its 2009! I can not believe it! When i was a kid i remember counting up to see how old i would be in the year 2000 and life after that just wasn't important i guess! 2008 was a great year though.... so much has changed but really nothing has, if that makes any sense at all. Josh and I have been together a total of FIVE years ( Nov. 30)! I cant believe that either! It seems like last year i looked across the room in our 3rd hour gov. class and was so excited because JOSH CAMPO was in it! Or driving around in his cool Maxima just so happy to even sit next to him! (...Sigh...). Well this year is going to be great too! If we ever can get our stuff together, our dossier will be sent off, Ethiopia will receive it, and we will have a baby this year! And our lives will change forever! I am soo anxious and excited! I have a new outlook now, i cant focus on what isn't happening i have to see what the future WILL bring to us. Then i don't go crazy! I look forward to all the family and friends i will see, and new friends i will find. All the books i am going to read, and all the movies i will see. All the future struggles, i know not what they are yet, and all the exciting rejoicing moments i will have this year. I look forward to it all, the bad and the good, happy and sad! Yes, 2009 will be a great one!

Alexandra's List of Top Hair Products 2008

Favorite for Thick/Coarse and Curly hair: Aveda Brilliant Universal Styling Creme. Seriously, this product has saved my life a few times...if you have coarse hair it is magic! Also, love to use with up-do's. Makes hair shiny and gives it just a little hold.

Favorite Straightening Product: Sexy Hair Darn Straight. This product works wonders for frizzies and fly-aways. It works well when just blow-drying also. Not heavy at all because it is more of a light lotion consistency. Love it!

Favorite Mouse: GHD Volumizing Mouse. I am in love with this stuff! I love the smell, how it works, everything!

Favorite Pomade for Men (or women): Aveda Mens Grooming Clay. Favorite Conditioner: Kenra Moisturizing. This also, smells delicious like banana runts, a cousin correctly pointed out to me.

Favorite Shampoo: Nolita Moisturizing. I am in love with this stuff! Not only does it smell good, it leaves your hair feeling amazing! But of course, of course, this brand has been discontinued leaving me sad and lonely for more...(good thing i went on a lot of websites and ordered many) ( i only use them on special occasions and holidays)

Favorite Leave-in Conditioning Treatment: Pravana Hydrating Intense Leave-in Treatment. I love best that it is a spray, that way you can use a lot or a little, and you are in complete control. I feel that with lotions or cremes you tend to use too much. This smells really good, like candy! Favorite All around Hairspray: Aveda Pure Abundance. Firm hold, yet not crunchy or sticky. I love it best when used with backcombing.

Thermal protection: Rusk Thermal Shine Spray. Works wonders when flat ironing, smells delicious also.

Curly Beach/don't care today product: GHD Sea Spray. Compare to Bumble and Bumble Sea spray, this is lighter and not as sticky so you can mold and move through out the day.

My NEW favorite for everything: Sebastian Whipped Creme. It smells SOO yummy! Gets an A++ just for being alive.

These are a few of my favorite things..

People keep asking me what i want for Christmas, but when i am put on the spot like that i can never remember.....here are some things i not only want, but need as well.....

Josh and I are in need of some really good kitchen cutlery. The knives we have are from IKEA and will not even cut the cheese correctly... that is how impossible they are..

Sadly, my trusty ol Rainbow flip flops that are suppose to last a lifetime failed yesterday when the right one broke....i wear them everyday and even though they have a lifetime guarantee, i don't want to send them in.....I bought them at the actual Rainbow factory 5 years ago....I've worn then just about everyday since....i am in desperate need of replacements...

For those of you who know me, you may or may not know that i am in love with music! I LOVE MUSIC! Just one itunes gift card would be more than enough...there are so many new bands and singers i have discovered but cant bring myself to buy due to lack of funds....

I've always wanted a really cool shnazey leather bomber jacket and i have seen some really cute ones this year...

But, more than anything, i want my baby....this one isn't "the one" but isn't it cute! I just am tired of waiting and everything.....I know for a fact this is something i will not get by Christmas, but when it comes down to it, everything else is just everything else, i don't really want anything but our baby......hopefully by some miracle, we will hear back from Ethiopia by then.....but if not, we will still be here waiting for what really matters most to us right now...